I bought ridiculously cute things today
shoes, jeggings (they are cool ones, okay), sweaters, shirt.
yeaaaaah.
Okayyyyy
Abilify is definitely a take in the morning med for me…
Legs were too jittery to sleep last night.
Now, do I skip a dose or take another dose in less than 12hrs. Hmm
This is by far one of the most important things I’ve seen on tumblr because It describes things I was not able to
things we are trying to do all the time:
- 1. be safe
things we can’t help but do all the time:
- 1. second-guess ourselves
- 2. behave impulsively and reactively
- 3. take…
Anyone else have the type of anxiety that in certain social situations you just keep talking about random, sometimes inappropriate things because you can’t help it because you worry that if no one is talking or if you’re not talking that something is wrong and that everyone will feel awkward and it’s your fault and awkward situations make you feel even more anxiety so just babble? yeah.
An Evening of Awesome.
Hank and John Green.
Thank you. Thank you thank you thank you thank you.
I cannot begin to adequately explain how much you’ve helped me. In some way I’m sure you’ve saved my life. An Evening of Awesome gave me the foot up I needed from my current battle with my depression, and it’s thanks to you and Kimya and Neil and everyone on that stage and everyone in that crowd and everyone in the nerdfighter community.
So thank you everyone. Thank you for helping me through another day.
Advice
If you are in a discussion based class: always try to make it to class no matter what- especially if you only have one class a week.
Even if you are an introvert and don’t talk much, find something to say.
My class involvement is the only thing that redeemed me this semester. I am incredibly grateful and thankful for the understanding my professors have shown me over the years and especially this past semester.
Also, always talk to your professors. Just… tell them. Speak up for yourself and don’t be afraid to ask for help or extensions or whatever. The worst they can say is no.
Sometimes I wish I had taken a medical leave, but I know if I did I would have a ridiculously hard time getting back to it.
I’m honestly worried about making it through this coming semester.
I really need to go see my therapist and my psychiatrist (at least I’ll see her next Thursday).
I need to send emails I’m scared to send and I need to do something so I don’t fail this class. (seriously)
My brain is having so much trouble putting thoughts together that I feel like I actually have brain damage.
I really kinda need this to work out. It is so stressful waiting to hear the verdict of your disability claim, as many here would know.
I really hope I have done enough and they consider it not just dismiss me, my age and “fibromyalgia” as a generalisation not worthy.
some can work and have…
*gentle hug*
This is actually something that I’m terrified about. I have one more semester left of school and then I’m out in the “real world.” I’ve gotten away with having really understanding employers and professors at school so I never had to file any sort of disability or what my school is now calling “accessibility” (right, okay).
I want to work, I like working, but it hurts so much. I want to be a librarian and I love being a barista but my pain is both constant and spikes unpredictably. Again, I’m terribly lucky for my school and the fact that I have flexible hours for one of my jobs, but when something flares it is near impossible/is impossible for me to work.
I really hate when people dismiss my pain because of my age. Yes, I’m 21, yes I’m “too young” to feel how I feel - well guess what, I STILL FEEL IT AND IT HURTS.
It doesn’t help that I also have MDD and GAD with a little mix in of ADHD.
I’m not really sure why I’m replying/reblogging. I guess to be selfish and rant but also to just say that you are not alone and I really really really hope that your disability claim(s) work out.
Today
So I’ve had an emotional week / a number of things have really brought me down.
I was happy to have an appointment with my therapist today after work and hopefully get some things off my chest; but I called my mom before that and she told me what had happened in Newtown.
I’m from CT, and I have family that lives in Newtown and one of my little cousins attends school next to where the shooting happened. It was terrifying for our family. I’m extremely grateful that no one in my family was harmed, but I cannot even express how upset I feel.
Besides the fact that I find this act of violence inconceivable, it just really hit close to home for me.
I’ve been crying all day and I feel utterly heartbroken for everyone involved. How will the children that survive ever feel safe going to school again? How will their parents feel? What caused that man to do such a thing? Those families will never recover from this… I mean, how can you?
I just don’t understand.
I needed to just.. put this somewhere because I’m having a hard time and sometimes you just have to say that. I’m trying my best to focus on my family and my loved ones and getting my work done, but it’s hard in times of despair.
HIATUS
Hi all.
I’m taking a break from tumblr possibly until late December.
I am not getting my work done and I need to not be on the internet for stuff other than school for awhile.
Miss you guys.
If you really need to contact me, message me and I’ll turn on email message alerts.
If you know me irl and have my email you can email me at my school or personal one.
Cheers.
Silly Saturday
I need a short break from paper writing, so here are the silly things/things I learned from my Saturday aka celebrating Becky’s 21st birthday.
- Becky answering the door in just her bra and panties (Hayley and me) = awesome.
- THRIFT SHOP.
- Chocolate alcohol-infused whipped cream “shots” can actually do a lot of damage. It can also look like poop if you don’t shake the can enough or hold it properly. That being said, 99% of the time someone else has to feed you it and therefore it looks sexual and then you laugh but you JUST HAVE TO TAKE IT.
- Being at the end of waterfall in a circle of 15+ people means drinking a lot.
- Jello shots are kind of gross.
- Some guys are actually kind of cool and I forgot how awesome it is to have male friends. /wtb males
- “Sevens” is a fun game, even when you’re bad at math.
- I am good at beer (water) pong.
- I had a box of gluten free crackers with me to eat when I got the drunchies and Hayley tried to open the bag and it ripped down the side but I put it back in the box… this did not stop me from leaning back and spilling all of them on the futon I was lying on. Twice.
- According to one of Becky’s friends, Hayley and I party hard, which made us cool.
- Dancing when you’re drunk is fun for about 5 minutes and then you feel terrible.
- Always look before you sit. Especially when your friend has saved a special cake-face-shaped cake and has placed it where it can be sat on. (Yes, I sat on it and it no longer looked like a cat).
